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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Currently Reading
Party Monster : A Fabulous But True Tale of Murder in Clubland
By James St. James
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My Presence

 

 

The chase has now ceased,

The hunt for my state has been stopped,

For they’ve captured their beast.

All my thoughts and beliefs have been shrunk,

They’ve been squashed and erased from the murderers list.

I’m effaced or reborn with no help of the priest,

I am shit, perhaps more, some say not,

I have only been breathing since I was forcefully kissed.

I’m the defective machine and I’ve been stuck here with this,

My vortex is clean from the blood and the piss,

It’s been open, consumed, decaying, and young,

It’s so pointless to torture the children like this.

I’m too fucking glasslike, fragile and fractured by fragments,

I am air, I am dust, I am breath that shot through,

I exhale just for being, just for pleasure and truth,

I withstand the gold reason that has damaged the few,

From the best and the subtle,

I’m the outcast in spew,

I’ve accomplished no greatness,

I’ve been drowning since daylight in the infinite blue.

I’ve achieved so damn much, so damn much and yet I’m so crude.

Perhaps it is them whose bleak mind has been jagged, sliced open and skewed.

I am perfect; yes and then no, sometimes when it’s dimming I grab onto his clue.

And I learn all his secrets, and I’ll share them with you.

I have learned that I’m godlike and I’ve foolishly lost,

I have spun and fell helpless,

Zoomed right past the age long, the nomadic and new.

Too damn many small words I have wasted and tossed,

Now I lay in the soil,

Resting slowly from exhaust.

I am mute and so blind to all presence,

I am gone to all that I’ve crossed,

Those who think that they’ve known me,

Will be shocked how much I have cost.

My dimwitted quick phrases, my poses and slang’s,

Have been flushed through the rusting,

And have churned into stains.

In this time when drop’s pummel,

When the bleeding sky rains,

I so proudly will do this,

Spread my arms and share pain.

spit on me


Sunday, December 18, 2005

Currently Listening
Welt
By Ohgr
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Ri_h-U.B


Monday, November 28, 2005

Currently Listening
Barcelona
By Freddie Mercury, Montserrat Caballe
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I’m dead…

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


Monday, November 21, 2005

Currently Listening
Sunnypsyop
By OhGr
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guess who this is about?....you all know him....and some of you want to fuck him...

The Messiah

 

There was a wall that once stood still.

Right now it’s gone, run off through valleys and past hills.

It stood miles high, and rivers wide, and with each day it grew in size.

It lay alone in gloomy weather, and covered secrets in its nether.

It would cast shadows on the grass, and brought up flash backs from the past.

It gave them hope and dreams at dusk,

It gave them drive and length and lust.

Until a man came with vile thought,

Debris and death he proudly brought.

He tore down ages of belief,

He made the wall an ancient myth.

The man still roams the forests green.

He lives unpunished, and unseen.

He must be murdered for his deeds.

He must be hurt and forced to bleed.

He is a monster and a tyrant,

He is no leader but a fiend.

He fed them nightmares every hour, and from their fear he grew empowered.

He will be caught and made a casualty, for his seditious thoughts and foul mentality.

The hangmen will expose their skill,

They’ll ask for more, cant get their fill.

They’ll smite and drill until he breaks, and with a grin, spit in his face.

When he coughs blood onto the crust,

He’ll raise his head and feel bloodlust.

And when his bones begin to creak,

With one last breath these words he’ll speak:

“My breath is short, and I am weary,

But I’ll say this and you must hear me.

I was a king, and now I’m tortured, for that you won’t see the Heavens orchards.

I lost myself without a trace,

When I returned, I was defaced, and when I’m gone from this crude planet.

I’ll fly away and get effaced.

If I fade now, you’ll lose your life, because I gave you trust with strife.

I gave you history and being,

I’ve shown you logic, sense and feeling.

The hatred fueled your old ambitions,

I drove you wild and gave you vision, and I have left you with volition,

Yet you still make the wrong decision.

I gave you life and goals to reach,

I gave you something you could preach.

I gave you something to achieve,

But you are foolish and naïve, and now it’s done, and I must leave.

And though, and though, you know you lost,

When I pass on, you’ll feel the cost.

I gave you roots of love and seeds of passion

But still you shoot the dove without compassion.

I brought you closer to delight,

But you turned back before the flight.

When I am cold and pale in prime,

You’ll see who’s won the war this time.

I was the word of God and I served best,

And I was holy, clean and blessed,

Yet people saw me as a pest,

And put me last, behind the rest.

With anger burning in my heart,

I broke your mythic wall apart.

Well now it’s gone with coals and ash,

And with my act, I stirred this clash.

When I turn bitter on this cross,

You will regret your sacred loss.

And I’ll be far, too far to listen, care or wonder.

Say what you want, you’ve made me somber.

I’ll be amongst the seraphim’s and virgins,

As we get drunk from all your misery and burden.

I will consume all anguish, torment and distraught,

And make all efforts lead to naught.

It will be vengeance from above,

And it won’t matter who you loved,

And I don’t care if you are true,

Because your downfall I pursue.

I won’t forgive you for this scheme,

Because I’m chosen and supreme, as small and fragile as I seem.

To get to me, you’re not permitted,

You won’t be chosen from the wicked.

Since I select and hold the border,

I‘ll send you down to feel disorder,

You’ll spiral down into abyss.

Where you’ll be burnt if you persist,

To cry when whipped and to resist.

While I’ll feel joy, delight and bliss,

As I look down and reminisce.

You’ll feel much worse than me, as I hang bleeding,

So with these words, I go to Eden,

From this day forth, your life will coil,

As you erode, turn green and spoil.

You’re much more ignorant and foolish,

Then I have thought long time ago.

You’re more absurd and shallow, stupid,

Than I have ever thought you were.

You’re all but infidels and heathens, whores, pagans, cretins, fools,

You lost your chance when you have crowned me,

The spikes dug in, while nails broke through and made me one with holy wood.

So from now on you’ll crumble slowly and decay,

From this strike on, you’ll have to pay.

And so with blood upon my halo,

I smirk at you and say farewell.

Because quite soon you will descend to Hades’ in your shell,

And in eternity you’ll dwell, and walk the land of flames in Hell.

You will be cracked, abused and broken.

In times to come you will be sold,

With skin cut off and veins ripped open,

Your heart will turn to age old stone.

And when the reaper drags you slowly,

You will conform and march in line,

With other sinners dressed as swine.

You won’t fight back or try escaping,

The pits won’t offer any safety.

As you sink deeply into slime,

The years fly by in dirt and grime,

You lose the sense of self and time.

And for the rest of pointless being,

Amongst the limbs, the flesh and skulls,

You’ll crawl like animals, agreeing,

Surrounded tightly by the drones.

And there you’ll pray, while slowly spinning,

But your short words will smash like bones.

And you will want to taste beginning,

Alas, your dull life has been sold,

And what’s remaining of your spirit,

Will soon enough convert to mold.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

                                                                                      Ragj -T


Sunday, November 13, 2005

Currently Listening
Opium
Opium
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yeah...its all gone...but its better this way, at least for some of us...for those of you who actually read this crap have my phone number...so...put that to good use...if you care...oh..but you dont...and thats okay too...its good to be alone anyway...and so i guess ill add shit later...when im...whatever...you dont really care, and im only talking to myself...so maybe i can actually tell you the truth...um...maybe not..im just "venting"...and i guess im supporting this sites original cause...you know...those fucking teenagers...so angry...if they press keys repetitevly they may feel better...very original...and they can share pictures and tips on sex...and everyone can pry about how much coke they did or how many girls they fucked...or guys...because you know, theres nothing wrong with gay people......blabber....blabber...im sorry....for the one person that actually reads this...and he is typing this shit right now, this very second...and now....and now...and now....

 

 

oh dear ash-mash....how much i love you....even though youre far...so fucking far....it doesnt really matter...my heart can stretch....and everything it carries goes with it...for you....for us...for everything we have achieved...skrinkle...



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